this is.. tearing me apart so badly..i really.. dont neo how to stand up now... n i really dont know... the hurt..is far too much then wat i can take i guess... but wat wan qing said is right.. this is lfe.. i hav to make my own decision... somehow.. arg shit... my heart n mind.. is like shattered glass... n its my decision..if i want to pick up all the shattered glass or not... im tyring to numb myself.. but i cant.. im trying to think abt it..but i cant too... im stuck in the middle of thinking n numbing... i want to do either of this.. but i cant... i dont know wat i shld do.. its like.. 1.28 now.. n i cant get to sleep.. cause.. there is this smth in my mind.. tmr is my class chalet... n im going out wif them early in the morning.. someone.. pls.. tell me how to last through tt day... pls... its a long day... but.. no matter how long it is.. the thing.. still wont get through or out of my mind... i hav fallen... n.. i dont know how to pick myself up... hanging on or letting go... i dont know.. if i hang on... there will be a very big disadvantage.. but if i let go... there wil oso be a very big disadvantage... some kiind soul on earth... tell me the correct way out... i cant make this decision....haha... wat a joke man.. the decision is in my hands.. but i dont know how to make them.. everytime.. when i am abt to fall.. i kept reminding myself.. i hav to help to settle the others problems... but now.. i dont even neo how to settle mine... it seems like some small little decision on the outside... but.. in the inside..its not as simple as u think it is... imagine.. the power n source of ur life.. is gone... imagine.. ur rainbow disappeared n all u hav is a piece of dark sky... tell me how to face this... itss really easier said then done.. i know.. i have to pick myself up.. but.. someone tell me how to pls... i dont hav the push to go on anymore... i dont.. every smile.. is every tear... in the end.. i still wasted my efforts... all my efforts... all tt i hav put in.. its a blank now... all i really wish now.. is tt things will be going fine for everyone.... tts all i really want.. n the rest.. i hav to learn to face it... wif a smile... or mayb a tear... time is all i need to face it... but.. 2 or 3 wks... is definitely not enough...i hope.. i will hav the ability to make ppl stop worrying abt wat i wrote... i hope.. tt i didnt hav any care n concern at all this yr.. i hope.. tt i can hide at the back stage... hide at the back stage.. wif a bed for me to lie on... if things are like tt.. it would be great wont it... (:

guo jing n tank the album release le.. :D the songs are quite nice n very meaningful :D very very nice.. :D tank album is called the 3rd round n then guo jing de is zai shu shang chang ge... :D it has been long since i updated myself wif chinese songs.. no time now days.. :X but chinese songs till rocks!!! :D WOOTS!! :D i very long nv watch yu bai oso.. :D hais.. must find time to update myself wif all these yea...

haha.. :D YAYS!! :D TMR IS 1K CLASS CHALET!! :D ME BEING THE CAMERA WOMAN :D i dont like to take pictures n i hav no choice cause i cant play games n walk tt much yea.. (: tmr b4 tt we are going to watch monster VS alien.. 3D eh!! :D so cool.. :D going wif gf ah ma xin dong n i dont neo hu.. :X haha.. lol.. :D hope tt no one will get injured tmr.. :X CHOY CHOY touch wood.. :X has been long since i stepped into a cinema.... (:

omg.. im toking wif kim bao on msn now.. :D n its like.. she dont want watch horror movie n then i was like... horror movie can bond better mah.. :D :D n tts the truth.. :D haha :D i miss all the netballers.. :X oh yea.. thanks a lot a lot kimberly.. :D i love u woman!! :D u made me laugh like some.. crazy idoit :D :D thanks dear.. (:

ok.. the rest of the post below.. is going to be emo yea.. (: so if u dont wan.. pls dont look.. (: its cause.. of smth.. (: n i mean really emo...

tank - 如果我变成回忆

累了 交困里努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 你心像往常还有热

i wish tt... there is a stop button.. i really wish there is.. (: things will be much better... it really will.. im sry raelene.. i dont.. i dont know how to solve things out for u... jy jy.. todays.. training was fun :D ok.. i neo i didnt train.. but seeing u ppl train makes me smile.. :D

its like.. while u guys are doing the mirror image n all the defending stuff i can hear all the siao siao laughters n all the funny funny ways of running... :D haha.. (: u ppl look so cute while running n all those.. :D kim bao was super super super funny today too.. esp when me n her went to the toilet :D :D she walk down the stairs like... :D wa.. its really super funny :D :D n YAYS!!! I GOT MY TEAM BAG!! :D WOOTS!! ITS SUPER NICE OK!! :D :D its like.. my friends in my class was like.. wa lao eh.. early know i join netball.. the bag so nice.. :D

but then if join netball for the bag... ee yer.. then join for wat?? (: i rather.. i dont hav the bag... i rather.. i hav my team.. (: tts wat i really need to survive.. :D without a team.. its no fun.. life will be DULL.... :D so.. its gd having a team... (: cause.... it rocks to the very core... :D esp.. when.. everyone is bonded wif the team now.. (: i jus love the way it is.. (: i wish tt.. there is a stop button now.. (: cause.. i dont know wat will happen later on.. (: i jus hope tt.. things will be as united as now.. (:

even now kim.. can somehow express her emotions in a siao siao way.... (: wan rong wif lynn they all oso going out wif us more often now.. (: so.. its a gd news i guess... (: haha.. (: i miss playing netball.. but i hav to rest it for 1 month.. arg.. another month.. AGAIN... how many 1 month of rest must i take??? alamak.. :X oh.. i dont hav to take anymore :D cause the doctor says tt my leg will fully recover next wk!! WOOTS!! :D haha.. (: so raelene.. stop worrying for me.. (:

getting injured really sucks.. :X so.. dont get injured... :D ok.. lol..hu wants to get injured besides kimbao.. :D hope tt.. things will be fine...aft june holidays.. (: wa.. it will be super super long then we can meet up in sch.. :X blah... how i wish we can meet up everyday like now.. (: n yea.. (: really pray tt things will be fine aft june.... somethings.. jus happen.. whether we want it to or not.. (:

is there really a use getting a team bag now??? (: hmm... mayb... but..it will be a waste.. (: haha.. ok.. im crapping.. (: n i seriously am.. (: i went to sch...limping again as normal duh... (: i went to the doctors again cause my leg was hurting today.. :X n.. tmr will be ANOTHER LIMPING DAY.... he seems to be murdering me... :X alamak... it sucks... being injured.. :X

today was super slack.. the first 2 hrs was... talking :D n then aft tt... lit teacher absent english period was word games... the only time tt we did study today was for... geo.. :D n then.. i took like... 30 mins to get to the bubble tea shop frm sch.. wow... :X it seems so stupid... :) but.. no choice... arg...

is.. there a use.. for all those things done for the past yrs?? is.. there a need... for ppl to... be playing??? is there a must.. for ppl to get...??? y cant... alamak.. nvm.. (: asking all these questions doesnt help does it?? (: haha.. lol.. (:

heys ppl.. u all are tired.. but heys.. hang on there yea?? (: things turn out fine.. it will.. (: jia yous loves... (: hmm... dont really feel like posting too much again.... jus visited the doctor so.. feel like having a nice sleep :D hehe.. (: n tmr.. will hav a LONG LONG TIME moving around... :D

oks ppl out there.. stop worrying for me yea?? (: im fine.. still kicking alive.. (: really im fine.. (: my leg.. is.. old injuries.. (: i went to the doctors n i was shouting like some crazy idoit there.. it was super pain.. :X but.. i hav been training half way for trainings.. :X but.. hais.. nvm.. it doesnt really matter now.. (: but heys.. next time jus dun bother abt me ok?? i will bring nth but trouble.. i really mean trouble... i swear.. so.. (: next time jus leave me alone.. or not.. i will jus get u in trouble... so... im sry... really.. i will be fine alone.. (: trust me...

someone.. tell me wat im thinking now... haha.. (: lol... im sry raelene.. if i pissed u off today.. if ur angry dont keep it inside u yea?? (: jus.. vent it out on me.. it will be better.. (: but.. today i didnt sprain or wat lar.. its really old injury.. (: is it tt hard to.. not injure myself during training?? my god.. i dont know... :X some one tell me how pls.. :X

hais... once injured.. its jus so hard to recover... (: but nvm.. i wont giv up.. i will try to work hard for netball!! :D n really thanks a lot chicken... for helping me today... n thanks everyone for ur concern... love u guys.. (: thanks for being my team.. (:

i realised.. tt im not breaking down.. till the very day.. i rly exceed way way far off my limt.... n till the day.. when everyone's smiling...i will make sure.. i will go on n hang on there... (: go on ppl... there must be thunderstorm before.. its a sunny day again.. (: n this thunderstorm is the time when we all grow.. (: hearts... (:

im sry raelene... thanks to my stupid phone.. but.. arg.. nvm.. i still hav to wait a while more.. :X n YAY!! :D my mother bought for me the 1 litre water bottle today!! :D WOOTS!! actually i wanted the water bottle n the very ex ankle guard... n i thought of paying it myself but then end up my parents jus got both for me!! :D

the bottle is cause its my late bday present frm my brothers n ma... another one is cause.. my ma scare i injured my leg.... haha:D but i wish tt my parents didnt get me both.. cause.. it seems very.. i dun neo how to say lar.. its jus... i prefer to get things wif my own savings.. then u can treasure it better.. :D haha.. lol.. (: n yay!! :D we are getting the converse bag soon.. my gosh.. its so cool!! :D i told raelene tt its my first time experiencing such team spirit.. like..

last time in my pri sch my batch the netballers only 4 of us close.. the rest is jus.. normal friends.. (: its real cool tt it has only been like.. 5 months n there we are being so close.. (: i hav to say tt even my pri sch mates took a longer time.. (: we are all lucky to hav similar type of personality in a team.. :D

its like.. we are love each other more then we love ourselves meaning no selfish ppl yea?? (: its... such a miracle.. (: other ppl outside there are rly angry cause they are injured n then they cannot walk or wat but we are rly angry when others are injured.. its... so cool.. (: its a type of magic tt can not even be explained i guess... :D :D

wat mr khoo said is right.. next time when we step into the world outside there n we need help its our sec sch friends we find... :) cause its now tt we know how to put others b4 us.. :D i hope tt.. our team spirit n friendship.. will rly last forever.. even when we all are married.. or till the day we die.. (: haha.. (: wonder wat if im not in ahs... it will be... TERRIBLE TERRIBLE TERRIBLE :X

i went wif my jie to bugis today :D n then... i was transfering watever i see into life logics... its weird.. haha.. when u walk n turn into another path... its a diff music... rly diff.. it can be pop classic smoothing.. but we still hav to walk on whether we like the music or not... in the many many ppl tt we see... we wont find someone tt we really care easy... there can be a lot of things.. where u wanna dont wanna let go.. but u hav to.. there are times.. when ur tired.. n u jus wanna stop there.. but u still hav to get home yea?? (: tts how life works i guess...

i still can hold on to max for another few days i guess... (: haha.. (:

i can tell u tt.. if im tired again in the near future.. (: i will really break down n not stand up again... (: n this is.. jus my instinct.. :D haha.. lol.. (:

oks.. another post abt today.. haha.. :D guess wat?? KIMBERLY SPECS LOOK SO CUTE ON HER!! HAHAHA!!! n some more wif her nerd nerd look.. :D as in when she act lar.. wa.. she look really really cute.. :D she look so funny sia... :D :D jus cant stop thinking abt all the funny funny stuff today... :D haha.. went to tam to shop for team bag.. n we are like.. trapped in between 2 bags.. :) but both are quite nice i tink.. i dun mind both.. :D

n then... we were laughing as per normal n its like... we saw amanda pe n some other sec 3s there.. n then we went crazy.. :X haha... :D n today for pe i was so glad we dun need to run although i want but then if i run i will get scolded again.. :X we were doing the malay wushu today.. n then it was like.. we are supposed to stand up gracefully at the last move but then i cannot cause my knee got no strength n i was laughing like some crazy idoit ok.. :D

i look scary wif my knee guard esp when its PE.. cause no one else is wearing... :X n its white... so striking... :X but then.. if i dun wear.. will die more.. (: esp when some ppl neo abt me not wearing guard n blah blah blah.. :X n heys ppl.. things are not going smoothly nowdays i guess... but.. jia yous.. (: n haha!! :D hav drum tmr!! :D joy to the whole!! (: im looking forward to next tues.. (: cause hav training.. but without amanda again... :X oh yea.. sharks... i jus realised..

i still owe coach 40 pumpings.. :X alamak.. next tues hav to do again.. (: but its ok.. can help to jian fei... term 2 i grown by 1 kg n 1 cm.. :X but its still very fattening ok... (: hmm.. i jus noticed smth else too... (: finding a place alone.. is not easy... cause.. if u hav anything inside u.. u tend to.. erm.. like.. try n forget abt it when ur with others?? :) so...ai yar.. i dun neo how to say lar.. (:

but i hav to thanks someone.. for bringing me to a place alone.. without any disturbance..(: n yea.. (: thanks.. sometimes.. silence n being alone... helps... (: haha... (: n i decided to sleep late tonight!!! :D i jus like.. woke up at.. 8.30 frm my "nap".. hehe.. (: so i shall watch YU LE AT MIDNIGHT!! :D MISS IT SO MUCH MAN!! :D last time every day watch de lor.. but then now.. cannot blame lar.. :D

heys buddy!! :D happy bday to u!! sry cant go to gm n celebrate wif u.. :D but a really happy bday to u.. n pls hor.. u tis banana... learn to take care of urself ok..n pls for god sake or watever sake.. QUIT GETTING DETENTION LAR... but heys.. thanks for all the support these days tt we spent together.. its true.. tt when im lost.. u nv fail to help me.. :D haha.. (: being my wisdom during times when im down.. (: really a big thank you... i.. dun neo how to say out everything tts in my heart leh.. :X psps.. :) but u neo.. u will forever.. be my best buddy.. (: no matter wat happens.. (: in future or now.. n amazingly.. time passed so fast since k2 till now.. haha :D so cool.. (: lol.. (: best wishes to u... n.. really thanks for everything u hav done for me.. (: hearts... (:

hmm ppl.. todays training was quite slack.. without coach.. take care n recover fast coach!! (: but then it was like.. was playing game n i was GS WIF AMANDA NG n she is like.. i really dun neo how to escape out frm her dodge ok.. :X blah.. it shows tt my netball dropped like some crazy idoit..

n its like... i wanted to play GA on the next match but then.... a type of love stopped me... n yea.. (: thanks for the love ppl.. but.. im really ok.. if u dun trust me.. trust my love for amanda.. i promised her smth today.. i will not play or run if my leg even hurts a tiny little bit...so.. yea.. (: wa lao eh.. i really felt so much like pulling the GA beab n then running on court ok..

ur played dun neo how many games n im like.. :X blah... but then nvm.. its ok... i will make sure.. i will run on the court next time.... today the day past pretty fast.. surprisly.. (: haha.. (: tmr.. will past faster i guess. (: oh yea.. HAPPY BDAY MR BANANA!! :D SOME ONE IS OLD TMR!! :D haha.. (: lol... hmm... im surprised... tt some ppl dun need time alone.. haha.. (:

well.. a place alone.. is alw gd.. haha.. (: n heys ppl.. thanks for all the love today.. really thanks... im glad.. tt i hav these love.. (: n amanda came to see us today!! ah ahaha!! :D motivation plus source of energy :D :D thanks amanda... (: im glad.. at least.. i talked to u today.. cause.. i miss u too much.. (: hav not been toking to u for long.. cause.. haha.. (: take care ppl.. (:

sometimes... loving n protecting someone is for their own gd.. but then.. you will hurt someone.. without knowing how deep it can be.. n without knowing if shes hurt... (:

oks ppl of the big/ funny/crazy/blah/ blah netball team.. dun worry abt me n my leg ok... u ppl are like... giving me the worrying face today when i was putting ice.. heys..its jus impact.. plus old injury replase i guess... (: dun worry too much... it jus needs more rest yea?? (:

was actually thinking of not emoing on my blog.. but then.. i dun wanna hurt ppl... like.. hurt as in.. im ur friend yet im not telling u wats happening.. tt feeling sucks i neo.. haha.. (: but.. its jus to relase out my stress yea.. (: n jus to let ur neo lar...watever i said wasnt the full thing.. in case someone say i qi pian ur feelings... :D i nv had the ability to write out the full thing.. :D

its seriously hard to hang on esp without amanda there...its like.. no source of energy le.. haha.. (: i shldnt even hav stopped today... tt was my last set of DODGE... n ppl... tts DODGE... its my worst yet i missed the last set of it... alamak...i confirm wont get into sch team de lar :D ... but it doesnt matter to me.. haha... :D n wa lao.. u ppl.. really need to worry till like tt meh?? like.. ok lar.. i neo ur nv tag abt my emo post but i neo u guys did read it...

but.. im really fine.. u ppl dun hav to ask me if im ok everyday u neo.. im not tt fragile... :D as for my leg... hmm.. i dun neo is too long nv stretch or wat lar... haha... :D lol.. tmr is wed.. the longest day of the week... ah..save me someone... :)

对不起

多久了没有你的消息
上一封简讯是星期几
又错过了与你的约定
对不起真的不是故意

有时候没办法陪着你
你总是对我说没关系
放不下我对你的任性
对不起不该让你伤心

有时候你会让让我
尽管我大男人发作
有时候你会装作不懂
默默地留一些空间给我
这些事情其实我一直都藏在心里

请你原谅我不懂逗你开心
请你原谅我不懂听你的心
回想这过去我学着让你更安心
别赌气别任性别放弃
说声对不起

有时候你会让让我
尽管我大男人发作
有时候你会装作不
懂默默地留一些空间给我
这些事情其实我一直都藏在心里

请你原谅我不懂逗你开心
请你原谅我不懂听你的心
回想这过去我学着让你更安心
别赌气别任性别放弃

请你相信我我会更加珍惜
请你相信我我会呵护着你
小小的爱情却是我最大的幸运
疼爱的想念的都是你
请你相信一个这样的我

请原谅我对不起对不起

some one pls help me... im.. so used to my own fake smiles... tt i lost my ability to smile frm my heart now... i hav been numbing myself wif fake smiles n studies..all the way.. since i dun neo how long ago... n now.. i really pushed myself too hard did i?? everytime.. when i feel like stopping my fake smiles... i dun neo how to.. i will jus push myself to go on... n mayb wat wan qing said is right.. i dont hav a limit...

i do hav a limit for injuries.. but for this.. i dun neo....im hurting so badly inside me.. n i wanna... smile frm my heart... but.. i somehow lost my ability to.. im thinking.. if its right of me to type out this post...i lost my ability... to stop the fake smile frm everyone else... i dun neo how to stop it now... everytime.. when i wanna get the troubles in my mind settled out.. i couldnt... pls dun ask me y.. cause.. i wanna neo the reason y too...

fake smiles n studies.. can jus be the numb to my current troubles... but after using the fake smiles n studies excuse for a very very long time.. i drifted away frm reality... without me knowing.. im escaping frm it... n wat wan qing said is right... its like a drug... its like smoking.. n once u get used to it... it jus keeps happening... wat is a real smile?? i forgotten abt it...

im too used to... smiling wif qing yi in one coversation.. n crying wif raelene in another..who am i?? i dun neo... i really need time to figure this out.. but how?? i hate schooling tmr.. cause its another numb... when these fake smiles get into u... its really adictive... even now.. im trying not to put smileys.... can someone pls tell me..when am i smiling..

n when am i not?? im jus trying to run away frm u guys.... by all the fake smiles..cause if i really emo... i will be bringing nth gd to u ppl... i wanna face it now....right now... but... someone pls tell me how.. i lost my mind... i dun neo hu is the person typing this post... im trying to keep all my emotions for months... but....

i some how... lost my limits...it isnt my limits now i can tell u... but.. if i dun stop.. wat will it be later on?? i dun wish to stop... but.. i neo i hav to... wat is the urge pushing me inside?? i dun neo.. i lost it... i hate... running when my leg hurts.. i hate... all the smiles.. tt are given by me... are they fake or real??

haha.. gd question cause i swear i dun neo wat is inside me now... i need a break.. i really do.. b4.. i really exceed my limit.. im tired... i really am... but it jus doesnt seem to be the right time for a break now... i feel like breaking down.. but i cant.. cause theres tis urge inside me telling me not to... taking drugs like tt..... sucks at times... esp when u overdose it...i lost myself...

wat am i doing in netball?? wat am i doing as a team mate?? wat am i doing as a friend?? i neo i need time alone.. but whenever im alone.. things jus wont work out... but when im wif everyone.. i dun neo wat im doing... god tell me wat to do.. im crying so badly inside.. but im smiling outside.. n i dun neo how to stop this...... i really need a break b4 i can move on again... im sick of myself... but heys ppl.. let me handle it alone...dun help me now..cause there isnt a need to..(: i promise u ppl i will be fine lastest by wed ok??? trust me... (: i neo.. im tired.. but i neo.. i hav to hang on there.. n get my limit bac... (:

oks ppl... if i flare up at u tmr i apologise first... i jus flare up at my ma n sis today n yea... really sry... cause... im alr not in gd mood.. trying to force some smiles n laughters... n erm.. trying to tolerate my sister hitting me for the sake of doing it..

but at last.. i still flare up.. cause she scolded me for using my hp too much while i didnt even exceed 20 bucks for 3 wks n she herself exceed 100 bucks in a month.. so.. haha...she even scolded me for investing so much in netball n she thinks tt its useless....er.. ok... (:


N THANKS DADDY!! U DID CHEERED ME UP A LITTLE!! :D cause he bought me a ankle guard tt i wanted for very very long... futuro one.. :D haha.. n most importantly its like... it cost 24 bucks but he bought for me without saying anything n i swear its the first time... :D WOOTS!! DADDY U ROCK!! :D its true tt it gives a lot of support.. but its really warm... haha... as long as i can run properly n do leap properly i dun mind... my previous ankle guard is no use... its far too lose... (: so i dun need to worry too much abt my ankle le.. :D

but heys ppl.. cheer up yea??? hang on there amanda n wan qing.. i neo u two can do it... (: no matter wat i will alw be behind u two n there is a love which will nv end.... (: u two can do it... dun stress urselves too much... (: jia yous.. n raelene... hang on there too... trust urself.. cause ur raelene.. not yani who can recycle oil.... :) lol.. (: jia yous ppl... (: love u guys forever n ever... (:

你最近还好吗
by SHE

挑一张耶诞卡
写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底
你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法
让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗如果真不得已
忘了我快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂
都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长
回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法
让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗

你最近还好吗忙碌吗累吗
心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我

everyone is tired i guess...we all need a break.... to tink abt some stuff tt its a must... im thinking if i shld continue smiling... haha... (: lol... after training stopped... there hasnt been much laughters... n im afraid after training starts... its going to be worst... but its ok.. (: cause i rather all of us emo then smile sometimes... (:

hehe.. im crazy n sry for tt... (: can some kind soul on earth tell me the definition of happy?? wats the definition of a smile?? wats the definition of treasuring someone?? wats the definition of enjoying someone?? wats the definition of loving someone?? wats the definition of being urself?? wat is missing someone?? how fast can time pass??? (: hmm... my friend asked me these questions n i tink its too chim for me to ans.. (: cause.. i dun neo the ans too... (: haha... lol.. (:

i lost my ability to..... do smth.. haha... (: i need a place... tt i really need right now.... (: wat is life??? wat is netball?? wat is team?? wat are injuries?? is smiling easy?? is walking easy too? is running easy?? is dancing easy? is loving someone easy too? wat is the meaning of friend?? or mayb a team mate?? wat is the meaning of running?? wat does wearing netball shoes means?? wat does training means too?? hmm.. wat abt care n concern?? troubles?? haha... there are too many to name... :D does this questions sound easy n retard?? :) :) :P

haha... :D sry for being retard here... :) those are jus random questions tt came to me when my friend asked me stuff similar to it.. :D im like... ok.. i jus took the wrong medicine today... :D hehe.. :) so.. dun bother abt wat i wrote... its crap... :D shld i or shld i not?? its some crap too... :D haha...

hmm... i guessed i hav changed... i dun neo y.. but tts jus a thought... i feel tt im so proud now.. im so irritating.. im so... not myself.. jus not myself these days.. dun ask me y pls.. cause im trying to find the reason y... (: how long can i last... tts a question i wanna neo too... :D n.. anyone knows of any place... which there are no passer-bys.. no nothing.. (:

cause i trust tt no matter where we are... we are forever as a team... (: i hope tt next yr even when we spilt into sch team n non sch team.... no matter which grp finish first... i hope tt we all can wait for each other.. n go home like how we are doing now.. its hard to keep it tis way... but i really hope we all can.. n also dun forget watever we hav now when its next yr.. (:

i tink we all can do it.. so lets work together yea?? (: n hey girls.... we ppl are as a team...so dun say sry.. n if we hav anything lets jus share it out yea??? it will be better... cause we will settle it as a team... (: we will carry the burden as a team... somethings are meant to be kept inside.. but some are meant for saying out... so.. (: those tt can say lets share them.. (:

hahas.. :D me went to rachel hse today to help her design her gb notice board.... n we were watching high sch 3 at the same time... i love some of the songs.. cause they are very meaningful if u look into the lyrics... :) haha..

heys my dear dear raelene.. me not emoing lar... :) if i emo will tell ur de meh?? :) if i really emo i wont write such emo things for my msn name de lar.. :) dun worry yea?? :) im very cheerful de wor.. :D got the sickness frm yani le... :X blah :D dun worry abt me...:)

oh yea.. the design we did today was quite sucessful... :D it was quite nice too... but im glad im not in gb.. VERY VERY GLAD... or not hav to put hair net.. EE YER!!! NETBALL STILL ROCKS N IT WILL ROCK FOREVER!! :D hehe.. :) haha.. :) we were laughing quite a lot today.. one of it is because of some.. little mermaid song... :D its sang by a little kids n as u ppl neo.. i dun neo how to appreciate some weird weird n guai guai de eng songs so i was bursting out at the lyrics... it was so so funny!! :D wa.. :) i neo i very bad lar.. so.. sry to whoever the singer is.. :D :D haha.. :)

then after tt i went home.. n jogged around my hse there... n.. im so prepared to fail my napha test.. i took like... 11 mins to run around tt whole thing.. n its not a lot... alamak.. my stamina really sucks to the core now... but then at least i train the gripping of balls plus my balance for a short while today.. :) n guess wat?? :D :D :D I FINALLY GOT A BIT OF MY GUAI GUAI DE LEFT DODGE!!! :D WOOTS!! haha.. :D im super happy.. :) but then my hit off angle still.. haha... shall train on it tmr.. :) thanks to all tt helped me in dodge.. :D n.. im so going to get my stamina bac.. :)

haha.. :D now kimmy cant say tt im old.. :D :D cause someone is as old as me... :D hehe.. :) blah!! :P i sound like a lame n retarded kid... :D haha.. :) hmm.. amanda is right.. if u turn back.. n look.. u see wat u gain... but wat will hurt more is u see wat u lost.. but its ok.. :) cause its human nature.. u must lose smth.. before u can really neo how to treasure it wif ur heart... :) so.. best is to forget wat u lost...treasure n move on instead... :) jia yous dears... :)

ok..after talking to qing yi.. i noticed how much my netball skills sucks... no qing yi its not ur fault tt i feel tis way.. is jus tt.. i suddenly notice.. :) my grip of balls...they suck.. my left dodge.. my stamina... wat the... i shldnt hav missed tt 1 month of training... i cant even catch a ball properly now.... stepping dragging started a little in my footwork now... wats the problem wif me n my skills now??? the one tt is injured is my leg... not my hand.. when did having butter hand start???? i suck.. so badly... im going to train without rest till i reach my limit.. :) arg.... i regret tt yr... when i jus ran across the road.. but its the past..so.. yea... :) 

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