hmm geo lesson was really meaningful for me.. (: today, i learnt that 30 million people die of hunger related disease every year, but the world has provided enough food for the world's population. so why is this happening? people in other countries can be eating till they are over weight, whereas people in other countries do not even have the energy to shoo a fly, circling around them, away. if only governments are not corrupted, if only people from the other countries can eat lesser and donate some food to people who are starving badly. if only, humans arent selfish creatures. someday, i wanna do something to help that society out there. be it a simple act like donations, or perhaps being a doctor. as compared to saving lives, drums is second. (: this world is weird.
ever since i came back from the ocip trip, im really sensitive to such stuffs. learnt to treasure a lot of things, including the most basic stuffs like the roads we walk on. really people, Singapore is a really fortunate country. wait till you see the rural areas. now, i wish i can grow up quickly and help other people who are just like us, only that they are less fortunate.
new goal: study hard so i can help others in life. (:
ok, im gonna start out again. (: and yep, things will be just fine, i know it will be. (:
tmr is a brand new day, a brand new start, a refreshed me. (: lets do it. (:
and I miss you already
7:32 AM
Thursday, February 16, 2012
next wk is another hectic wk, another 5 test coming up. looks like im closing up again. Back to the time before i had us. i sincerely hope it will be over real soon.
hmm for lit yest, i was finally enlighten that the world is actually very very practical.. :X hmm my thoughts are so childish, so unrealistic, like as though it will not happen HAHA as though they happen in fairy tales only..(: hmm this world is cruel and dark, hmm something i really hate a lot but i guess this is reality.. (: hmm time for some deep thoughts again.. (:
So you guys think i flare up that day because of stress? I'm sorry to disappoint you, I didn't. You guys were the cause of it. It wasn't because I was stress. And so after doing so much for us, I screwed things up the way it was supposed to be. Haha that isn't the best part. The best and most exciting part is you can stare at me doing the notice board with my corn infection and not help me as though you didn't play a part in anything. You can walk pass me seeing me carry two stacks of newspaper and the yr bk and ask me where is your food, well successfully walking off aft asking. Just to remind you, my corn infection hasn't recover. It is also proven that only you guys need to study while me and myself, have the responsibility to settle the shirt. It's not worth doing so much for you guys. No one ever appreciated except the three of them. Even worst, I thought we could share secrets. Sorry I'm wrong abt this again. You guys still have the cheek to say that in front of me. I give up. None of you actually care and bother. I trusted you guys and apparently its not worth too. So forget it. I'm not gonna think for you guys before myself again. The shirt is the last. I don't care how you think and how you feel, I'll just do what I like next time. There's no pt.
It's so hard to trust people that you love.
perfect way to end all this. (: sat tmr! :D
and I miss you already
7:41 AM
Friday, February 10, 2012
so, this wk flew pass like that.. :X was actually stressed out by the large amt of test this wk but its over like woa so fast.. :X have been cutting out a lot of my social life and entertainment, studying and studying each and every day yes i know i have no life! :X
hmm this isnt the life i want, it isnt the career i want too, i dont wanna be a doctor or lawyer least accountants. hmm im striving real hard for something i dont want, HAHA ironic right? (: hmm but i dont have a choice, I cant survive with my dreams and well, studying is the norm in sg. truly, if i really achieve good results, im uncertain of where i wanna go next, i have no realistic plans for my future, unless i really pursue my dreams.
and this wk made me realise something, life is too short to care about anything unhappy, idk if thats an excuse for me to run away from reality or what but, yea.. (: so lets just leave things and live life... (: its 11 feb 2012, without knowing i live my life for 15 years going 16.. (: i'll make this 16 a good one, hopefully.. (:
