hmm have alr planned for my dec holis.. :P hmm im gonna pick up guitar and master the basics and im gonna spent loads of time on drums as well.. (: im gonna make sure i really do it because of my desire for it.. (: i want it so badly, i wanna be able to pick up the guitar, strum or pluck according to my mood. (: i wanna play drums like i never did and definitely, it requires a lot of hard work. (: i wanna be able to play any instruments given, or least figure them out on the spot and play it. (: its amazing what music can do to humans. (: for this period of time, im gonna give it a pause to whatever i have to in the aspects of music and concentrate on exams.. (: after that its gonna be a full blast towards it! (: Looking forward to it! (:
and I miss you already
1:22 AM
Sunday, August 21, 2011
i have no motivation to study, got so many things to be done, so many things i planned for my own revision. tian i have to get myself back on track. o's are coming. hetic days, time flies so fast. this is no good, thinking of music and well escaping from studies all the time. Really busy so many things to be done. :X ok for the sake of my child's future, for the sake that they wont have to struggle to get to their dreams, for the sake of earning enough money to provide them to peruse their dreams. im gonna work hard, enter a university and earn loads of money. (: hopefully this will be the last wkend i wont have motivation to study. (:
HEARTSTRING IS AN AWESOME MUSIC DRAMA! :D LOVE IT! (:
and I miss you already
9:00 AM
Sunday, August 14, 2011
hmm watched new moon and twilight again these two days.. (: hmm really saw how people or even HAHA vampires protect their love ones to the extend that they give up themselves. hmm this world is beautiful because of this, i guess. (:
but what if you cannot protect them, even if you give up your life? (: HAHA.. perhaps that person is a little insane.. :P well nothing seems to be sane in this world, everything seems to have question marks to them.. (: probably we all have to leave the question marks and make them into exclamation marks.. (:
simply love going to the ESPLANADE! :D tian it really makes me feel alive, least for that while.. (: it made me experience joy, not happiness but joy.. (: indeed music is joyful.. (: hmm only two things that can keep me alive now : sports and music. (: everything abt this two stuffs.. (: really love the esplanade... (:
come on. stop being a stupid coward. just face it. cry it out. by being like this, you are pulling two people with you into this stupid mess of yours. just get over it. its just life and its cycle. you've done what you can. you know you cant keep him with you then let it go. stop hanging on to something so tightly when you know its gonna go. release the grip. you're hurting yourself if you continue. get yourself alive, keep yourself going. stay strong. life isnt gonna stop for anyone. including YOU. live it on, alive. he wouldnt want you to suffer with him right. you know it. leave it. find yourself back. come on, you know you can do this. stop numbing yourself and escape from all this mess. you KNOW you are gonna have to face it. just do it now. get it done and over with. no one can help you, not even your closest friend. you have to help yourself.
and I miss you already
9:47 AM
Saturday, August 13, 2011
hmm really miss drums lessons! :X HAHA need it a lot, especially nowdays.. (: hmm i learnt that life is so fragile, so unstable. (: anything can just happen anytime, whatever that is. hmm and who is gonna be there for you through it all? (: thats another question to think about. (:
hmm.. not only that, i learnt that we all have friends. (: But not all of them accepts who you are, not all of them are there for you when you feel that things are so wrong, not all of them will show you what they themselves are thinking. (: So, i guess the only time to see who is your friend is when things are wrong. (: HAHA so when things are wrong is it a bad or good thing? :P HAHAHA.. (:
I SWEAR FOR CENTURIES OF MY LIFE TODAY WAS EPIC!! :D :D hasnt been smiling and laughing till this extend for a really long while, so big thanks to qingyi yy yani raelene and yijia! :D really enjoyed today because of all this funny funny stuffs! :D feels awesome being able to laugh to this extend that my stomach aches and that i can cry laughing.. :D made my day perfect! :D
MY BELOVED LOVE! :D
feels really great that i am actually a person that so many people wants to protect though i dont deserve it. (: If you are one of them, big thanks, really appreciate it. (:
