ok pardon me for being straight forward.. :X i cant stand this crazy life and i need to. .:X you know.. :X
hmm.. i just cannot understand why is everything like that. Everyone in that is in basketball is the same, everyone. Im not ever gonna trust anyone there again. I will try to trust those people who i guess i need to. Besides that, i will not.
If you dont need me just say, stop using weird and funny ways to convey that msg. I will leave automatically. I still have other stuffs to do. im not so free to alw be with you understand? Joanne and stacy, jun and freda, freda and her god, yuan ru and her juniors... haha it all fits. so just tell me in my face. Im tired. i really am. I hate it when im recovering frm one another one comes. This totally sucks to the core. you guys never did treasure me. Im not needed, i know that very well. With or without me, life will still be the same. Since im not needed to you guys, why not i spent the time with people who needs me? im not a robot, im really not. If you wan you can try cutting me up and see if its machines or blood. hmm... I just have to accept it. i will. hais... hate this to the core.. :X
haha done!! :D hehe.. (: hmm jus some random stuffs!!(: oh yea today teachers day was fun!! (: THANKS TO JOEL AND AH MA FOR MAKING THE CAKE!! (: IT TASTE GREAT MAN!! :D :D WOOTS :D hehe.. :D THANKS TO THOSE WHO CAME AT 6.30 TO HELP WIF THE CLASS DECO!! (: you guys rocks sometimes! :D haha.. :D
erm... yest went to pebbles hse to bake cookies and was cool! :D COOKIES TASTE GREAT!! :D MUHAHA :D haha.. (: (: shu juan joined us later and we were talking abt cool stuffs also.. :D were we? :X hehe.. (: anyways erm... today was awesome being back at secondary school! :D haha.. :D
oh yea.. (:
THANKS TO LCB FOR HELPING OUT WITH MY CRAZY LIFE THESE DAYS! (:
THANKS TO WINN & FREDA FOR PRAYING FOR ME TOO! (:
THANKS TO NATASHA! :D
and I miss you already
10:00 AM
Monday, August 30, 2010
LIFE HAS BEEN REALLY RIDICULOUS IF YOU KNOWN WHAT HAPPEN IT SEEMS LIKE MY LIFE TOOK A 180 DEGREES TURN! :X ITS LIKE LIVING IN THE SKY THEN ON LAND NOW OK IM CRAZY.. :X
Its so weird, how things can turn out to be. How weird can your life turn man.. :X Its so hard to control your own mind, when you have to balance out two relationships, two minds, many people in one mind you know.. :X
ok i said im weird pardon me for this stupid post i just need a weird post today.. :X
Some gifts or talent, i rather not have, then knowing things that are so.. :X TIAN.. :X Life is experiencing a really big hump ahead with this crazy thing.. :X OMG SERIOUSLY THAT CANNOT BE TRUE RIGHT??!!
Knowing too many things sometimes are really hmm what i call unhealthy. Everyone seems so obsess with it, i feel so.. GRR :X TBH.. :X
Angered, disappointed, smiled through this. Many things in life is out of control, you have to learn to control STUPID & SILLY stuffs ok.. :X this is really... crazy. One and only word to describe this : CRAZY.
Truth hurts. I have hurt myself like how you have. But i guess we have to accept it even though i really dont want it. No matter how much i try to hide and ignore the fact, a fact is still a fact. There is a reason, no matter how hard we try. Putting in front is too much, so, i will respect you. That's what you choose.
When you make a decision, people sprint with it while you walk with it. And if you have a heart that knows, you will do it unconditionally. (: Simple, like this. (:
and for the remaining time, i shall continue to adapt to this RIDICULOUS LIFE.. :X hopefully, everything will be fine really soon. :X life like that is too.. :X WILD for me.. :X i prefer a low profile life sometimes.. :X OR RATHER I SAY MOST OF THE TIME!! :X
and I miss you already
8:15 AM
Sunday, August 29, 2010
My sis trying to train her forearm muscles! :D HAHA :D :D SUPER FUNNY :D
HEYS PPL!! (: muhaha.. :D today was a sUPER FUNNY DAY AT HOME!! :D haha.. :D :D my family is retarded.. :D
went for a super full dinner then walked home with my family! (: haha me and my da ge was suaning my sister abt her going to VJC.. :D :D haha.. :D and my sister memorised two paragraphs consisting of 5 sentences.. :D :D muhaha.. :D and she was showing off that she studied.. :D :D
came home and we continued suaning her abt her "bye bye fats"... :D when you wave bye bye and you see the bounce at someones hand.. :D haha.. :D :D super funny.. :D so my sister was trying to exercise and erm.. :X SHE CANT EVEN DO A GIRLS PROPER PUMPING.. :X I MEAN ONE** but nvm lar.. :D if she can do then not my sister le.. :D hehe.. :D
super funny!! :D my god daughter came in the morning!! :D haha.. :D me and my sister look aft her until we called SOS.. :X she cried.. :X too hungry.. :X BUT SHES SO CUTE OMG!! :D :D HAHA!! :D if can i wanna bring her everywhere i go!! :D her diapers is so small!! :D haha.. :D her pants is not even the size of a boxer.. :D SO SO CUTE!! :D TIAN :D
haha.. :D :D life has been crazy and crazy and erm.. :X more crazy.. :X one word to describe : RIDICULOUS... :X haha.. :X its like racing in a F1 race or rather for me its worst then wear a dress and high heels... :X haha.. (: NVM LEARN TO LIVE WITH CHANGES!! (: haha.. (:
hmm.. i really dont want to go back anymore. I love you as a friend, but i really cannot forget it. Once again, Im not a robot. Though im super ridiculous :X but i still cannot forget it. Sorry, i need time to think.
Thank you, for letting me feel that we are destined, not planned and arranged to be, though i know we are. (: still thanks. (: in my heart, i will always leave it as we are destined. (:
and I miss you already
8:59 AM
Saturday, August 28, 2010
and I miss you already
7:47 AM
Monday, August 23, 2010
你整齊洁白的床 是我傾訴的地方 抱你哭著到天亮 你等待幸福的廚房 那次情人節晚餐 卻是我陪著你嘗
衣柜不算太寬 藏著你的天堂 依然歡迎我分享 我們的愛很像 都因男人而受傷 卻又繼續碰撞
當天空昏暗 當气溫失常 你用巨大的堅強 總能抵擋 當尖銳眼光 當刺耳聲響 你用彩虹的浪漫 溫柔包裝
衣柜不算太寬 藏著你的天堂 依然歡迎我分享 我們的愛很像 都因男人而受傷 卻又繼續碰撞
當天空昏暗 當气溫失常 你用巨大的堅強 總能抵擋 當尖銳眼光 當刺耳聲響 你用彩虹的浪漫 溫柔包裝
看我丟掉他的西裝 比我先紅了眼眶 笑我傻 陪我慌
當我找到幸福去向 幫我快樂的化妝 陪我傻 笑我慌
當天空昏暗 當气溫失常 你用巨大的堅強 總能抵擋 當尖銳眼光 當刺耳聲響 你用彩虹的浪漫 溫柔包裝
and I miss you already
8:10 AM
Saturday, August 21, 2010
HEYS PPL!! (: hmm this week is a really busy wk.. :X see many blogs being dead and you will know that... :X hmm homework given is "accelerating" at a fast rate... :X using the principle of moments,
sum of anticlockwise moments = sum of clockwise moments
hw + more hw + more test = more energy + more time+ less sleep!! :X
haha... (: psps im a little kee siao here... :D hehe.. :D :D erm really dont get wats wrong wif perhaps er... newton? :X
if hes bored he can go catch some pokemon instead of dont know wat an object moves in a uniform motion of straight line or stay stationary if there is no net force and blah blah wat w= mg and f=ma.. :X
aft music lessons i sort of got addicted to pokemon!! :D its so nice!! :D sry lar i know its lame but then ghost aka pebble also got watch ok! :D hehe.. :D its quite touching actually.. :D hehe.. (: ok i told you im kee siao.. :X hehe.. :D
you ppl shld watch it to destress!! (: muhaha.. :D playing the guitar actually helps too!! :D HEHE :D erm im trying to find out how to you play the chord for Bb.. :X its like 5 fingers? :X weird... :X hehe... (: (: learning new song!! (: haha.. (:
done and over wif chinese oral!! (: (: muhaha... (: but next wk got chinese test.. :X JIA YOUS EVERYONE!! (: have been 2 wks since i saw my god daughter!! :X so long ago.. :X hopefully tmr i will have the time to go and visit her!! (: SHES SO CUTE!! :D gonna be one month old alr!! (: HEHE!! :D
I LOVE MY GOD DAUGHTER!! :D
At the end of the day, this is still how much I mean to you. Today, will be the last day im thinking about this. And after today, i dont want to live in misery and pain anymore. I want to be the happy cheerful me. I want to live life as if it is perfect. (: So, this will be the last time, im gonna say all this for you.
Im not sure if you know who you are, or whether you read my blog. hmm... Im jus gonna leave all the hurt here and put a full stop to it. (: Hope that one day, you will really understand it. (: Please look after yourself well. (: Live life as though everyday is your last day. (: I will keep praying for you, and i really hope, that you will have a good life ahead. (:
All i wanted last time, was simply for you to be happy. That's all.
But now, Im really tired.
I don't want you to acknowledged what I've done.
I just want to trust me. That's all i want.
Picking everything up, throwing it behind, picking it up again and throwing it behind again.
Guess, it's like a water cycle.
One day, one fine day, can you please stop and think about what had happened?
Have you ever trusted me since the first day we met, till now?
You never loved me, trust me the way I did.
I feel like a stupid idiot.
At times of the day, i really regretted knowing you.
Im not a robot, i injured myself and i feel the pain.
I apologise, for not being able to be a ideal friend, who never gets tired.
I really apologise, from the bottom of my heart.
I am still trying, i never gave up on you.
If you thought i ever did, this is for you.
So please, do not do that again.
Please.
If you ever do that again, im really afraid, i might hurt you.
So for the sake of yourself, do not.
Love yourself, more than how you love others,
Learn the consequences of certain matters.
I cannot always be here for you, though i will try.
Someday, we will all walk our separate ways.
But as long as you are within my means, i will put in my 100%.
Hopefully, this will really be the last time.
I will be strong, for the last time.
I will try.
And i hope, that you will try with me.
Im trusting you.
Do lay back, when you feel that you need it.
I believe, one day, you will understand the significance.
That one day, will definitely come, hopefully.
and I miss you already
8:43 AM
Friday, August 13, 2010
the day passed really fast today!! (: like the lessons were all rushing through.. (: this one rush that one rush.. :X but hmm today passed really fast!! (: and after sch things jus got better!! :D
haha... :D :D while waiting for nessa and yani to get done wif their stuffs qi rae and me was playing the guitar and singing!! :D cool.. :D :D haha they were learning this song called pyramid.. :D haha... :D this song is nice!! :D and erm the strumming pattern is dont know wat down up up down up up smth smth.. :X
erm.. i can conclude that drums is still the best.. :D :D MUHAHA :D haha... :D according to qi and rae its really tough to change chords... :D haha.. :D drums got no chords!! :D :D haha.. :D only got DRUMS :D MUHAHA :D er... i think piano is very diff to learn also.. :X so the easiest instrument to me is still drums!! :D
successful in physio-ing steph and qi to learn drums and im gonna continue to physio more ppl!! :D but one thing abt drums is that its very hard to practise when you wan.. :X haha you only can tap on ur thigh dont have real drums.. (: AND I GOT DRUMS LESSON TMR!!! (: YEA :D
finally one step closer to wat we planned!! (: haha.. (: (: alright im gonna sleep!! (: there is training tmr... :X my beauty sleep ar... :X NITES!! (:
hmm i know you dont wish to hear this but still, im sorry. It is my fault to have caused this. And im glad, that within so many of your friends, im the one to do that. (: hmm amazing. (:
and I miss you already
9:33 AM
Monday, August 9, 2010
HEYS PPL!! (: sunday was a crazy day!! (: muhaha.. (: (: went to visit my god daughter once again and shes SUPER CUTE!! :D TIAN SHE CUDDLES WHEN SHES SLEEPING!! :D Babies nowdays are really lucky to have loads and loads of bear stuffs!! :X INCLUDING BABY POOH OK!! :X *jealous* :X
haha.. (: (: spent time there wif my neighbour and ate lunch there too!! (: at nite i went to jun hse wif lcb!! (: muhaha.. :D :D we cooked for 2 hrs plus and then aft that ate for 30 mins.. :D but it was still fun!! :D we all played loads of funny stuffs!! (:
MUHAHA :D :D then "class outing" today!! :D haha.. :D :D only a few ppl went!! :D we went to angelina's hse and im telling you her hse really rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D THERE IS K BOX MACHINE THERE I MEAN IT OPERATE LIKE THE EXACT ONE YOU FIND IN K!!!!!!!!!!! tian :D :D WE SANG LIKE CRAZY :D haha.. :D before that we watched movie and played rock band.. :D :D haha.. :D er... the drums in the rock band is super hard to play.. :X
only angelina and sze wai can play nicely because they everyday at home only play that one.. :D haha.. :D then we played hide and seek!! :D HAHA :D lame right? :D but today is really super fun!! (: THANKS TO SHI MIN FOR SENDING ME TO MRT!! (: haha.. (: really enjoyed myself today!! (: didnt regret going out wif class! (:
and never did i thought that i would sing k box in front of them.. :X haha.. (: (: hmm next my mother went over seas and hse is in a BIG BIG mess.. :X when i say BIG i really mean BIG... :X hmm... when you have 2 brothers + 1 father who wakes up early in the night and goes to the toilet with their EYES CLOSED and wif UNGRADED AIMING SKILLS you will get a REALLY REALLY STINKY TOILET.. :X and the best is THEY DO NOT FLUSH THE TOILET -.-
woke up in the morning was thinking of going to the toilet to relieve myself and when i stepped into the toilet i was like.... er.... forget it... :X someday some community center shld help to make up this courses.. :X
alright i need to wake up really early tmr!! :X for lit!! :D haha.. (: (: so i guess im going to bed!! (: or not i will really fall asleep in front of the com.. :X haha... (: NITES!! (: THANKS TO 2B FOR THE REALLY WONDERFUL TIME TODAY!!!!!! :D SWEET DREAMS! (:
HEYS PPL!! (: has been long since i blog a long post so i shall do it tonight!! (: muhaha!! :D time has been really a BIG BIG constrain nowdays.. X: wif big piles and floods of hw frm various teachers.. :X i hope that one day there will be like 34 hrs!! :X then my injuries can recover fast also.. :D haha.. :D
time passed really fast and its august.. :X really soon we will all be sec 3s.. :X so sad!! :X and i didnt really have the motivation to study but still did study a little.. (: haha... (: this wkend is a busy one wif a lot of dates :D SEE IM FAMOUS!! (: haha jkjk.. (: (: but hopefully got enough time for me to sleep lar.. (:
my mother is in malaysia and will be back on monday!! (: feels weird again without my mother at home.. :X but nvm!! (: she will be back soon!! (: i wanna eat her food!! :X haha.. (: (:
today did some work and then er... went to my neighbour's hse to visit my god daughter!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D TIAN SHES SUPER CUTE!!!!!!!!! :D :D she smiles to herself everytime she stretch because she feels really good aft stretching.. (: (: hehe.. (: (: MUHAHA!! (: and the clothes that my mother bought for her is super cute!! (: GOT A LOT OF BEARS!!! :D
after that i went out wif my sister!! (: for dinner!! (: shes super retarded man.. :X we both keep laughing.. :D :D haha.. :D :D i dont know how can she be 16 when shes so retarded.. :D :D
haha.. (: tmr 11 im gonna go my neighbours hse for lunch!! (: and then enjoy myself!! :D :D haha.. (: (: will try and chiong my work on monday!! (: hmm.. :X my energy level has been dropping!! :X i need sleep!! :X GRR!! :X
im looking forward when EXAMS ARE OVER!! (: haha.. (: (: ok rest well peeps!! (:
hmm.. todays run was a little.. :X hmm too fun for me? :X hmm but nvm lar!! (: i shall go back sch to run "2.4"... :X hmm shall aim properly!! (: hmm but anyways thanks everyone for helping me today!! (: or msging me or even caring and stuffs!! (: thanks!! (: esp to those ppl who ran back or walked back for the sake of me!! (: and to joanne and bell for limping with me all the way back to the ending point!! (: thanks loads!! (: haha!! (:
hmm hopefully i can clear my 2.4 faster!! (: dont like to owe stuffs.. :X but anyways nice run everyone!! (: including juniors!! (: haha.. (: next yr let us all slack!! (: hehe.. (:
LIFE HAS BEEN REALLY RIDICULOUS IF YOU KNOWN WHAT HAPPEN IT SEEMS LIKE MY LIFE TOOK A 180 DEGREES TURN! :X ITS LIKE LIVING IN THE SKY THEN ON LAND NOW OK IM CRAZY.. :X 
