y is decision making aw so hard?? when u gain smth.. u really lose smth.... ok..this is like.. the combination of wat raelene n amanda said..(: but.. its the truth.. i dont know how to make this choice.. its hurting me so much... a thousand million times even more then wat i expected... really... i wish tt.. i can find a stop button... but.. i neo..its impossible... its really impossible... having to make a decison.. within 3 or 2 wks... is crazy.. i haven even sorted out my feelings n thinkings.. its all in a great great big mess now... i hav to sort it out.. but.. i dont know how to....i nv.. felt so... tired b4... im trying to solve things out.. but i jus cant bring myself to... shld i.. or shld i not?? i really dont neo.. i want to.. but i cant... i dont hav a choice... no.. or rather i say.. its not i cant.. is.. i know i cant.. so.. shld i follow my heart??? or my brain?? ah shit.. i dont know... i wish.. tt someone will tell me the ans.. cause.. i really dont know wat i want... i hav to face smth.. which i hav no courage to... wan qing told me.. tt tts life.. but.. y must life be tis way?? u neo how irritatin it is?? my god.. im falling apart... i.. seriously am lost at a maze.. a maze of hearts....a maze of love.. a maze.. .of..... if i hav a choice.. i really.. rather tt time will stop when we jus finished our psle.. tt... would be so much better isnt it??(: im stuck in a love.. a love of thoughts... a love.. of... im trying to numb myself now.. but.. i can nv numb myself frm this reality.. esxcept for sometimes when im wif the netballers.. (: i...am really at a lost n whoever hu hav the map.. pls giv me.. but.. the map is wif me.. its only tt.. i hav to make my choice of the way i wanna walk.. n the place where i wanna be... we are like the song... can i have this dance........