studied for the whole day today n i went crazy.. thanks to chinese e learning... :X arg... i prefer sch to start.. like hello?? there isnt any H1N1 case in anglican... but nvm lar... its still for the sake of us... so.. no choice... :X aft tt went to ubi for dinner... (: n then went to visit my aunt... (: had lots of talk there n then they were talking abt my sports life... lol... (:
its time.. alone... i seriously dont know wats wif me today.. or rather i shld jus say these days... is it because.. i haven gotta over the things tt i need to n i thought i did?? i really dont know..nth i do seems to help... i only can tell YOU abt HER n HER n i only can tell YOU abt IT... i only can talk to YOU to a limit only... i feel so useless... there... seems to be nth i can do... im like... i dont know.. im.. kinda of lost... i only can SIT down here n wait for IT to stop hurting... like... there is nth on the world i can do...
when YOUR sad n down.. there is nth i can do too... my legs need a break... my hands need a break... my back needs a break... n now... my mind too.... watever i seem to think i hav gotten over... isnt over at all... its still in my mind.. mayb its jus the decision i hav made..... n im only half ready for mental... i dont know.. i jus... all i can do is... nth... i made myself enough nuisance for ppl to worry n spent money on my injuries alr... tts more then enough alr... n now... im being such a useless person...
im hanging on wif reasons... but.. is this the right way to do things?? i dont know... im jus hanging on for the sake of my reasons... not for myself... i got my decisions frm my reasons too... is it right?? hmm.. i dont know.. i cant seem to help anyone now... i dont know how to vent or say out watever im thinking inside me... cause i dont know how to... forget abt it....
i... will get over this.. (: dont worry... its jus... yea.. (:
