Tuesday, July 7, 2009
ok i dont feel like talking abt my first day of sch now... i rly dont... hm peharps will say it some other day... (:
pls... pls.. take it as im begging u two.. stop it... if im feeling the hurt.. u two would be able to feel it much much more than me.... stop it... stop adding the cuts on to each other... stop it...
WQ... at first when i supported u.. cause ur nats is next wk... so.. i decided to jus respect ur decision.. but... at tt point of time.. i was thinking how much she would be hurt... i was thinking... how u got over this... u two didnt hav any good time for this topic did u.... u two.. are hurting each other far too much...
u guys.. took such a long way.. to be how u are now.... ppl.. will change as time pass... because of the friends they mix around... but.. i guess when ur are in front of each other.. tts the real you.. u two.. hav a special key to each other.... so... dont waste it... wq... somethings.. are not say... end it means end it... u can take it.. but hav u ever thought if she could??
is this the only way out?? i doubt yes.... u two.. are special friends to each other...i guess... its rly not because of the change tt ur friendship go down the drain... when u two.. were telling me the same thing... how u guys thought abt each other.. how upset.. how hard n tough u guys were... it rly hurts... u guys are saying the exact same thing...EXACT SAME THING .... ur reasons.. n everything...
aft all... u still know her.. n u still know her... u know.. how hurt she will be.. tts y u keep apologising.... u guys.... i rly dont know wat to say.... frm the msges u two were sending me... i know tt u two are still having the same thinking.. the same heart.. the same mind... mayb u guys wont know cause u are not me... but... i rly cannot do anything much... im.. an outsider.... n...the hurt.. is not smth which can be replaced by pain killers or wat...
i rly hope.. u...can reconsider ur thinking.. mayb tts ur thinking.. not hers... mayb tts the way u want things to be.. not the way she wants it to be... u guys shld sit over n talk properly to find a way out.... not thinking n settling it alone... it takes two hands to clap... i was happy for u jus now.. cause at least.. u hav come to a solution... but.. i guess.. tt was very fake of me.. im sry.. i..dont wanna add anymore hurts alr...so... i hope u rly can think abt it carefully....
oh gosh.. pls save me.. im trying to stop my tears frm rolling down... it rly hurts.. seeing u two msging me all those stuff... oh pls... someone.. save me... my leg.. is hurting like no tmr... im trying to keep painkillers away.. n.. its hurting inside out... oh gosh... i seriously dont know how long i can last... mayb for the first period which is PE tmr.. i will vent it all out... (: (: dont worry abt me.. i still can last.. (: my leg..doesnt make a diff now n later on.. (: (:
sometimes... i shld rly learn frm joanne..to say it out when its hurting... or not... aft holding it for too long the next time when its rly to the dead limit can die de... (:
and I miss you already
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