Thursday, March 25, 2010
heys... i jus wanna let you know smth...
you know wat? you jus thrown everything down and when you want it you pick it up all over again... forget it... wat i wanna post is not abt this... is abt...
hmm.. actually im not angry.. im jus hurt... rly disappointed... i thought last time that giving you time will be ok.. i thought that you will be more mature and stop hurting everyone ard you... but well...
i thought of it wrongly.. heys look ard you and throw away ur thoughts... now and do that.. look wif ur eyes.. how many ppl hav done so many things for you? did you ever appreciate them?
you are one of the best seniors that i rly love... that i rly appreciate... but you totally dropped my heart... im rly hurt.
This kinda of things... is jus... i dont know how to say... do you know how much raelene have done for you? have you ever look back? yi ern? rina? ur cell leader? this is not gonna be any better...
pls wake up and get things started... this is not gonna be any better if you choose not to care you know or if you choose to be in this thinking...
sometimes i rly hate myself for having feelings cause i jus wanna stop the hurt but sry i hav feelings and i wanna appreciate them... you know everytime you do smth and i hear it you know how i feel? im jus so so disappointed...
you brought me up though it was a few months.. you are someone that is important to me... every one counts.. and is this how you repay ur ppl ard you? i dont know...
you brought me up the way i am.. you taught me things that i needed to learn... you were once there for me when i needed a shoulder... and now? i rly dont know...
thinking back all this sucks ok... i rly wish that time will stop down there and not move any more... i rather we stop at that time when i knew that you are mature... not now.. and you know wat?
im only feel this hurt... wat abt ppl closer to you? have you thought abt them? have you ever thought how they ever supported you? its hard to trust for you i know.. but have you ever tried? if you wan nth is impossible but did you?
you gave up on ur life when ppl haven even gave up on you? is this fair for those ppl who haven given up on you? is this fair for ppl who is still helping you? wat abt those ppl loving you?
sry but i swear im gonna be hard on you this time.. its time. Time for you to wake up frm your domineering thoughts. Thoughts that are offically yours... im not gonna let you get any further frm here.. before you regret it next time.. before you even get anyone else hurt...
and I miss you already
8:05 AM
