hmm watched new moon and twilight again these two days.. (: hmm really saw how people or even HAHA vampires protect their love ones to the extend that they give up themselves. hmm this world is beautiful because of this, i guess. (:
but what if you cannot protect them, even if you give up your life? (: HAHA.. perhaps that person is a little insane.. :P well nothing seems to be sane in this world, everything seems to have question marks to them.. (: probably we all have to leave the question marks and make them into exclamation marks.. (:
simply love going to the ESPLANADE! :D tian it really makes me feel alive, least for that while.. (: it made me experience joy, not happiness but joy.. (: indeed music is joyful.. (: hmm only two things that can keep me alive now : sports and music. (: everything abt this two stuffs.. (: really love the esplanade... (:
come on. stop being a stupid coward. just face it. cry it out. by being like this, you are pulling two people with you into this stupid mess of yours. just get over it. its just life and its cycle. you've done what you can. you know you cant keep him with you then let it go. stop hanging on to something so tightly when you know its gonna go. release the grip. you're hurting yourself if you continue. get yourself alive, keep yourself going. stay strong. life isnt gonna stop for anyone. including YOU. live it on, alive. he wouldnt want you to suffer with him right. you know it. leave it. find yourself back. come on, you know you can do this. stop numbing yourself and escape from all this mess. you KNOW you are gonna have to face it. just do it now. get it done and over with. no one can help you, not even your closest friend. you have to help yourself.
